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I became a player, and I’m here to tell you from first-hand experience that the player life is not all it’s cracked up to be.

Players breed players.

After that mortifying experience, I decided that I would absolutely never let myself feel that stupid again.

Never again would I place all my eggs in one basket. I had been hurt by a player, and I was determined not to feel that pain again.

I promised myself to keep a second guy waiting on the sidelines — even if I was absolutely crazy about someone else. I wanted to be ready when the first inevitably f*cked me over. I wanted to be bulletproof.

Players are never completely satisfied.

Yes, I was bulletproof. But I was never truly happy. Content? Yes. But happy? No.

If you’re investing only half of yourself in something, you’re never going to come out of it wholly satisfied.

Players are insecure.

The worst part of everything was this: In my attempt to protect myself, I hurt plenty of perfectly nice boys — just as I had once been hurt.

I’m not mean. I wasn’t hurting people out of cruelty. Like most people who cause others pain, I did it out of insecurity.

I did it to prove — to myself more than anybody else — that I was better and could hurt them before they could even throw the first punch.

Players warp our reality.

A friend was telling me about how she can tell whether or not she likes a guy based on how she feels when she finds out he’s seeing other people.

Yes, you read that correctly: WHEN she finds out he’s seeing other people. She believed that every guy did this.

Like her, I started to expect guys to sleep around. I wasn’t having the normal emotional reactions I usually did in relationships.

I’d trained myself to become so numb that I didn’t even realize I had feelings for people — until it was too late, that is.

I think a lot of us have started to confuse selfish jealousy with real “feelings.” Were we upset because we actually liked the cheating guy to begin with? Or because we felt like we had lost the “game”?

Players never win.

You have to bet big to win big. But the key to being a true player is never betting big. You minimally invest in several potential mates to avoid investing in one person.

So, yeah, you’re not going to get hurt this way. But eventually, you get so good at avoiding pain that you turn numb.

Nobody excites you anymore. No name flashing across your iPhone screen has the power to make you dance around your living room in victory like you used to.

Players are juvenile.

It wasn’t until my senior year of college that something changed. I was seeing someone a bit older, and, for the first time in ages, I felt safe. I trusted him. And with trust comes respect.

I knew without asking that he wasn’t seeing other people. He respected me, and I respected him. I felt I should follow his example.

That’s the way it SHOULD be when two adults trust each other. It was so logical and natural, but something about it was also completely revolutionary and liberating. I was freed from a lifestyle I hated.

It’s funny, because I knew this all along. But college and hook-up culture had convinced me otherwise. For the longest time, I felt like an idiot for naturally tending towards monogamy.

I’m starting to realize that the player was the idiot all along.